Fourth

Man, looking at below, I realise how sad I was.

I feel like I've let go a lot of my pain, but this one spoke to the heart.

I'll just leave it here, just to reflect.


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My Trinity College Application got accepted, so I'm pretty happy about that.

I'm still in the Army, and the knowledge that there's a place for me after all this suffering is wonderfully encouraging. The fainting spells are getting better after 7 days of rest, but I feel my mind is deteriorating. I'm worried that if I continue to stay in this place I might not be able to even step on the plane, but the Army doesn't care so I shouldn't either, I guess. I should do that 'suck up' thing that they keep telling me to do, but whatever. At least I have something to keep me going now.

I'm at the halfway point. 62% done, less than a year to go. There's a whole world out there waiting to chew me up, it's not worth it becoming braindead in a place like this.

It's gotten so bad I can't focus on writing. I've been writing small snippets of character sheets and practice drafts but it's been getting shorter and shorter. This place is killing my brain, but I can't do anything to stop it.

But it's fine. I have a place to go after this. Just a bit more. A few more months and I'm going to be free.


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Yeah, buddy.

You'll be free soon enough.


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